Makes me think

Picture taken in November 2005 Yesterday, just before church, I got a call from my sister. She told me that my mom had a little stroke. While sitting in church, my moms eye sight went totally blurry, and she got a head ache, so she went home. Then at home, she started talking with slurred speach. She grabbed a paper off her fridge she had saved on symptoms of a stroke. After reading it, she decided she better get to the hospital. She had some test, and they decided to send her to a different hospital. (That didn't seem like a good sign) Well, after all the testing, they said that it wasn't a stroke. She has a degenerated disk. (I think, something like that).

Anyway.... going through all that, totally makes me think. She is way to young to die, and I am so not ready for her to die. (not that she would have died, unless maybe it was a major stroke). I literally talk to her at least once every day. I don't know what I would do if I couldn't talk to her everyday. It also makes me think of my dad. What would he do without her? I couldn't even imagine. Though, I know it will happen someday, yesterday just wasn't the day. Thank goodness. Everything is ok. Mom, stay healthy. (which you do, I know) But I love you too much to say goodbye right now.

It also makes me think, "What if something happened to Chad and I?" Where would my kids go? Are we prepared? It takes something like my mom going to the hospital, and me thinking the worse, (like her dying), to make me think of the future.